Collateral Love

I’m the victim of a collateral love experience. The love that tears through the space around, tries to connect and disassemble people sitting around and behind me. I’m caught in the love bomb. Irradiated. Stabbed with shards with melodies that tear into my shoulder, my back, my knees. The walls buckle as the wave bounces. … Read more

The 5 Books Meander, Week 25: Tazria’

What just happened: Some sections are easier to relate to than others. And then there was this week’s parsha. Two years ago there wouldn’t have been much to work with here. This year it read like a practical and super relevant how-to guide for people learning to live together, when living together means living with … Read more

Clank

I want to clank my fist against the armor they’re constructing inside me. Rattle the scaffolding just enough to let them know I know there are laborers hammering away at this shiny new space suit they’re building inside me I can feel them hammering with their tiny hammers. My skin can feel them all so … Read more

The 5 Books Meander, Week 25: Shemini

What just happened: This was a big one — the laws of kashrut (aka how to be kosher), including surprising news about bunnies and bats! Of possible note: The gestures, the rituals, the blood, the burning — I had never thought of it this way before, but today it really struck me how much these … Read more

1871

Fingers slow tonight from extra age, blown into my hands. The wind’s extra fierce tonight. So I sat by the lid of the fire pit after we switched it off in the cold tonight, sat in the dark tonight and watched the fire pit lid go from hot to not so. I don’t want to … Read more

Welcome to Hospital

In Generic World you go to local Hospital, and they say: “Welcome to Hospital,” and you can feel that capital letter, like they extra-mean it. You have a problem with one of your organs, and they say: “Organ Problem!” And you nod your head. “Let’s get that taken care of,” they say with Teeth. Doctor … Read more

Cold warriors, we

He gave me back my hard drives today by the pond by the geese by the free-range 3-year-olds who don’t even know what “pandemic” means. By their moms who don’t trust the geese, don’t trust the two old(er) guys at the picnic table with matching gray streaked beards handing a box between them. Wordless very … Read more